This should be an exciting time for me, but it's only been depressing. I am graduating in exactly a month, yet all I feel is panic and sorrow. Panic because of all I have to do before then and the uncertainty that comes afterward. Sorrow for a number of reasons. It's almost over. I've been having fights with my mother, and once again been rejected in that shitty game of love.
I just feel repulsive and unlovable tonight. I feel like my life's about to have no direction, and I feel like I've disappointed those around me. I don't know what to do, I hate this feeling so much.