I had a nice chat with the ex today. We're fine though we're not reconciling. We're being very mature about it. I miss him and love him dearly, but I have to let him go so he can become a better person, and so that I can as well.
I'm starting to slide out of this depression ironically as I'm recovering from a break up. I'm starting to feel it pass. I hope to get a job soon. That I think will really help with a lot of this feeling.
Thanks to everyone for their kind words and support. I love you all. I truely have awesome friends.